I will be drifting in and out of thoughts, from one unrelated matter to another, back and forwards, I return to deliberate “am I doing the right thing” taking my family on an unplanned journey around the Pacific, no time limits, no job prospects, what will this do to our kids development, do I just stay and plan my life like the norm, superannuation, retirement, the white picket fence to go with that mortgage that hangs around my neck like a tight noose, the sense of freedom, the unknown, what’s around the next headland, I have to go, don’t I?
The nightmare for me is not living, a type of society claustrophobia, a recurring feeling over the last 15+ years prior to one day waking up and sending this unexpected email:
To DFES, UFU, Bunbury FS.
You don't retire from the fire brigade everyday so no doubt this is just the start of the process, a mountain of paperwork will follow no doubt and the correct channels can be pointed out once you receive this email.
To get to the point this is an official email stating I would like to cease work immediately or two weeks notice as from October 31st 2014 (I am on leave without pay currently), there is a number of personal and family reasons for the decision but I would just like to say thank you for the time I had at DFES / UFU where I started as a 20yr old at Perth fire station for the first seven years of my career and the last 14 or so years at Bunbury fire station (great times).
Senior FF - Bunbury – 21178
That above email took me two minutes to write and at least four to five years of working up the courage, that word security well and truly entrenched in my DNA was very difficult to break, harder than I imagined, can I survive and by this I mean can I feed my kids, put a roof over their heads from the proceeds of a passion, photography, the dream job if money was no option, if I don’t quit as a professional fireman am I teaching my kids not to follow their dreams “be a robot of society”, or am I putting their very future possibilities in peril, the clash of thoughts continue.
I remember the day vividly that I started to question my direction in life, it was at the Overlander service station basically the last stop for fuel before Carnarvon, I am on the way up to Gnaraloo and roughly twelve hours into the long drive. Half way through filling up my car a 4wd towing a luxury van pulls up on the other side of the drive, an older chap gets out and we exchange the usual greetings, I then ask him about his trip to date “I have been working at Bunnings my whole life and retired a few weeks back, I have been dreaming of going around Australia my whole working life, this setup (pointing to his new 4wd/van) was going to be our home for the next how many years, we were only four days into the trip and my wife had a massive heart attack and died” he was certainly questioning his past direction, a hindsight moment, from that man’s tragic circumstance it taught me to take risk, grab and make opportunities now, as cliché as it sounds, live every day like its your last because one day it will be. I only need to reflect on that very encounter to know that I am doing the right thing, its not about how many homes I own, the toys, the luxuries etc etc it’s the memories created, family, friends, looking back without regrets, if only I did this or that is not an option, failures will happen and learnt from, looking forward to the now, looking forward to creating an uncertain life in the Pacific.
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